Trying Something New. Hello CrossFit

A couple years ago, a friend introduced me to some documentaries on Netflix about these fitness games from the past few years.  I was hooked from the first one.  It is the Fittest On Earth movies about the CrossFit games.  Before watching these movies I did not know much of anything about CrossFit or the CrossFit games.  I assumed it was something like the Spartan Races with people pushing themselves in crazy obstacles all to get fit.  I found the documentaries to be inspiring.  These athletes were pushing their bodies beyond anything that I could understand.  They were disciplined.  They worked hard to achieve superior results.  They were my vision of what it meant to be an athlete.  All the things I love.  I was intrigued.  These people were strong and fit.  And, I wanted to be just like them.

It took me a couple years to work up the courage.  But, in August of 2019 I finally decided to try a class.  I contacted the local CrossFit gym and made a commitment to attend my first class.  I was SOOOOO incredibly nervous.  Luckily, I decided to make their foundations (elements) class my first since I did not feel I was ready to even sample a full class.  It was a small group of 4-8 people learning the movements and then completing a workout.   In the foundations class all the people are new…so I wasn't the only one that was nervous. I was hooked.  We learned movements like the deadlift, squat and power clean.  Because I was new to CrossFit, I had to take 8 elements classes before moving to a full standard class.  There were a lot of movements that we hard for me.  Hello Wall Balls!  And movements that made my body jiggle more than I was comfortable with.  Dang you Burpees!   But, even with some work travel in my schedule, I kept going.  It took me a while to get all 8 classes in.  But, I did it!  Was it easy?  No, it was definitely hard work.  But, was it something I couldn't do? Absolutely not.  The coaches helped to modify movements and workouts based on my physical abilities.  They never made me feel like I was less than anyone else because I couldn't do something. 

I graduated from elements in September.  But, that was when my back issue decided to take control of my life.  Wanting to play it safe, I backed off of CrossFit until I felt more comfortable.   Here's the thing, as with my article about depression, I became frightened by CrossFit…more so than I think I normally would be.  I was terrified that my lack of knowledge of a movement would cause bad form which would make my back injury worse.  Was any of this true?  No.  But, my brain believed it was.   

As I started to feel better and my back returned to a more even level of pain my trainer recommended that I try more Olympic Lifting style of movements to help strengthen my spine. So, I tried one of they Olympic Lifting classes at the CrossFit gym.  Now, to say I was awe-inspired would be a huge understatement.  These were normal every day people doing amazing power cleans. Their form was beautiful and the weight was impressive.  At first I was intimidated with my junior barbell and really small baby plates.  But as people got into their own workout groove, I realized no one was watching me.  They were all focused on their own goals. 

Now, I know that I normally jump feet first into things that I am uncomfortable with.  I like the sense of accomplishment when I am done.  With CrossFit, I will say that I am still terrified every time I go.  I'm my own worse critic.  I know that I will probably be the slowest one there and that I will lift the least amount of weight.  What I have to remind myself  is that it is not about comparing myself to others.  The only person that I'm competing against is me.  And, if I am last, so what?  If I have to modify a movement, so what?  If I can't complete a workout in the time limit, so what?   I am doing this for me and no one else.

So, today, Monday January 20, 2020, the skill is deadlifts…which I LOVE!  The workout is 7 minutes of burpees…which I hate.  It is a movement that makes me feel incredibly out of shape…even though I'm not.  But, I will go to the class today even though I am scared of the workout…because I am doing this for me and I want to be stronger.